There's something in me bottled up
It's amorphous, swimming around
My soul and guts, my white and black matter

It's rising to the surface, grasping for air
Pressuring the vacuum seal to break
Day and night it lingers, lingers, lingers

It's been years since last I wept
And felt my most sincerest self
Habits change, memories remain

Tonight I'm sweating through my sheets
My pain is just a memory
Withdrawls are neverending

The thirst is gone now
My sails have caught new wind
They carry me past golden shores into eternal sunset

I am become from who I was
The hurt I caused remains aboard
This Ship of Theseus, built again

The Son of God once held me
When the seas were raging with despair
I knelt and prayed for safety

The trees shielded me from storms
I burrowed under their limbs
And slept soundly for a while

I've learned how to avoid the storms
And seas that won't bode well
They sent me into enough hurricanes

Some days I cry for help
In my turmoil and my grief
I am witness to my own sin

Most days are full of clouds
They billow under a blue sky
And show me who I truly am

This knowledge is my anchor
And this knowledge is my buoy
There'll be no more distress calls